Things Can Only Get Better...

So, things are FINALLY starting to get better!

I have one week left until I hand my dissertation in (SCARY!!!!) - of course I still have quite a bit to do on it! Its just my results and conclusion really though.

Next week, I have an interview at a GORGEOUS hotel near my Mum's - which is good, I'm dreading the interview but I'm excited at the same time. I sent my CV to the hotel and the GM (general manager) has asked to meet me, so not sure what I'm actually going to get offered.

In terms of leaving York, I am planning on leaving on 22nd May - depends on how this interview goes though. Things are in place for me to get my own flat (because my Mum decided she couldn't bear to have me under the same roof as her again ;) nah it's better this way!)

I'm not saying I'm spending the rest of my life in Berwick - I've had people comment that I've clearly just wasted the last 3 years at university if I'm just going to stay in Berwick and work in a hotel but you know what? I haven't wasted anything. I wanted to come to university and I did it. I had to prove to myself, among others, that I can do it. Berwick is just a pit stop on my journey, who knows where I may end up next? London? Paris? Ibiza? the Moon? I just don't know.

I'm also finally adjusting to the single life. I don't miss my ex. I miss the idea of having a boyfriend but not the actual person. We shared six amazing years together but sometimes, things just don't work out. We went our separate ways and I hope he's happy. I'm finally beginning to get my life back.

Anyway, this dissertation won't write itself (unfortunately!)

Ciao for now!
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At A Cross Roads...

So I am now working full time at the hotel, instead of going to university. I am still doing my assignments and the dreaded Dissertation but just not attending lectures.

However, now, people are beginning to ask "what are you going to do after uni"? And my simple answer is I DO NOT KNOW!

I enjoy the job I do at the hotel and while I am leaving York in May (and there is NO way I'm staying), I could theoretically work my way up to manager etc.

However, I like the idea of going into politics and changing things for the better. I enjoy helping people and nothing pleases me more than knowing something good has happened and I've helped it happen.

Or, do I follow the original plan and go into teaching?

At the moment, I'm going to move back to my Mum's and get a place of my own and find myself. I've been single for 4 months nearly and they have been the worst 4 months of my life. I miss my ex so much and to be honest, I do not know if I can be bothered with relationships now. I've seen so many fail in my family and now I just don't know if there's any point to them really.

Anyway, rant over. Ciao!

January Blues...

I have definitely found myself suffering from January blues.

I've struggled to cope with the break up with my long term boyfriend. I have so many questions but as he won't talk to me, I'm not going to get the answers I need. He said we'd stay friends and it would be better than before because there wouldn't be any of the crap that there was when we were together, but that hasn't happened.

I've decided on two universities that I want to apply to for my Masters; Glasgow and London. However, my Mum isn't sure if I'd survive in London. It is far away from "home" and family, and it will be expensive. I'm not sure, I'd prefer to be in Glasgow but then if I'm going into politics, surely London would be better???

In terms of weight loss, it hasn't gone great. I've been comfort eating a lot since the break-up. Now I'm home, I'm on a new diet and exercise regime so hopefully I'll stick to it this time. I just need to be away from York and away from the memories.

Not sure when I'll be returning to York, probably in a week's time but I kind of want to stay for longer. Depends on work and uni and my Mum lol. Part of me wants to quit uni but I know that's not an option. Not if I want to make something of my life. I need to prove myself and if I quit uni with 3 months to go, I'll just be proving some people right.

New Year, New Start.....again

Happy New Year!!!

So new year resolutions?

1). Keep my new year resolutions
2). I WILL lose weight this year!
3). Learn to drive
4). Have fun and live a little


My best friend and myself are planning on going on holiday in about 5 months. I keep saying it but I am going to lose weight for this. I'm going for my first run tomorrow. It should have been today but the New Year family gathering ran longer than I was expecting!

I've really missed my family, I didn't realise how much until I saw them today. I need to come back home more. My youngest niece has only seen me a handful of times and I don't think she's really aware of who I am properly.

So, tomorrow morning I am going to go for a run before I go to my sister's. I'm going to join the gym again hopefully and I've already got a training partner sorted. The same training partner as last time but she's assured me she won't let me quit this time. I'm slightly scared lol!

Its scary to think that so many things are changing this year. I graduate from university which means I have to decide what I'm going to do with my degree (and my life :/ which may take longer!) I'll be getting my own place somewhere, on my own. Something I didn't think would actually happen.

Anyway, I'm currently scanning photos so I'll get back to that!

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