January Blues...

I have definitely found myself suffering from January blues.

I've struggled to cope with the break up with my long term boyfriend. I have so many questions but as he won't talk to me, I'm not going to get the answers I need. He said we'd stay friends and it would be better than before because there wouldn't be any of the crap that there was when we were together, but that hasn't happened.

I've decided on two universities that I want to apply to for my Masters; Glasgow and London. However, my Mum isn't sure if I'd survive in London. It is far away from "home" and family, and it will be expensive. I'm not sure, I'd prefer to be in Glasgow but then if I'm going into politics, surely London would be better???

In terms of weight loss, it hasn't gone great. I've been comfort eating a lot since the break-up. Now I'm home, I'm on a new diet and exercise regime so hopefully I'll stick to it this time. I just need to be away from York and away from the memories.

Not sure when I'll be returning to York, probably in a week's time but I kind of want to stay for longer. Depends on work and uni and my Mum lol. Part of me wants to quit uni but I know that's not an option. Not if I want to make something of my life. I need to prove myself and if I quit uni with 3 months to go, I'll just be proving some people right.

New Year, New Start.....again

Happy New Year!!!

So new year resolutions?

1). Keep my new year resolutions
2). I WILL lose weight this year!
3). Learn to drive
4). Have fun and live a little


My best friend and myself are planning on going on holiday in about 5 months. I keep saying it but I am going to lose weight for this. I'm going for my first run tomorrow. It should have been today but the New Year family gathering ran longer than I was expecting!

I've really missed my family, I didn't realise how much until I saw them today. I need to come back home more. My youngest niece has only seen me a handful of times and I don't think she's really aware of who I am properly.

So, tomorrow morning I am going to go for a run before I go to my sister's. I'm going to join the gym again hopefully and I've already got a training partner sorted. The same training partner as last time but she's assured me she won't let me quit this time. I'm slightly scared lol!

Its scary to think that so many things are changing this year. I graduate from university which means I have to decide what I'm going to do with my degree (and my life :/ which may take longer!) I'll be getting my own place somewhere, on my own. Something I didn't think would actually happen.

Anyway, I'm currently scanning photos so I'll get back to that!

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